If I could offer you any advice, it would be this. don’t make a playlist of songs that remind you of him. don’t associate the seasons with his warmth. do not connect his smile to the movie you watched at two in the morning on a tuesday. avoid saying his name more than you say your own. I say this because when he leaves, he becomes those songs and each word punches you in the stomach and your heart beats to their rhythm. Every season is cold and the light from the tv burns your eyes and you can still hear is laugh at his favorite part. Your tongue spits his name out as if it were his and he cannot seem to even remember the color of your eyes.